"I wanted to make music that I crave, that I hadn't really found, that I wanted to hear," singer Arooj Aftab told DW. However, making the kind of music she wanted to hear required musical tools and vocabulary that she lacked as a young person in Lahore, where music was not really a career option for most.

To make things worse, she felt she didn't fit in. “When I was growing up, I felt that to dress or look different, to think differently caused a lot of friction and made me feel like I wasn't fully accepted. Not being able to imagine freely or be yourself is not healthy and like death for an artist," said Aftab.

Arooj Aftab defies the duality of identity: the Pakistani expat in the US views identity as something complex and nuanced Deutsche Welle

She did, however, have the power of the internet at her fingertips: At the tender age of 18, she recorded a raspy jazz cover of Jeff Buckley's "Hallelujah" in the early 2000s. Her cover was shared widely via file-sharing sites like Napster, MySpace and Limewire.

The song went viral in Lahore and, most importantly, gave Aftab confidence in her voice and expression. This success encouraged her to take out a student loan and apply to Boston's Berklee College of Music, where she was accepted.

Inclusive music

Since then, Aftab has learned the tools of the trade, becoming a music composer and producer in addition to a singer based in the US. She can completely transform pre-existing songs into new complex pieces with their own, unique character.

Yet her music is not just rehashing old numbers, she argues. "I get irritated when my music is called a 'cover' because it's not that. When you render something, especially if it is so old that is almost public domain, you are taking its root but building something original, something that is new and not done before; it is in the now," she stresses.

After studying music in Boston, Aftab found another home in New York Deutsche Welle

Constructing a sense of place is important for Aftab's music because of its transnational quality. Her music doesn't feel quite Pakistani nor Western. It transcends duality, provoking the listener to imagine a new place: one of inclusion.

"This generation is really bold and demands things, they want equality," she asserts, adding that the youth now don't want to be limited to fixed categories. "For years, Asian artists were pushed to the sidelines but now there is an emerging space, opening up the world to more to beautiful things that always existed but weren't known," Aftab says.

Urdu is 'beautiful'

Aftab's third album,"Vulture Prince," features her most commercially acclaimed rendition of Pakistan's legendary ghazal" singer Mehdi Hassan's song "Mohabbat" (Urdu for "love").

Arooj Aftab, here in New York, reflects that Urdu is 'a beautiful language' Deutsche Welle

The "ghazal" is a musical rendition of couplets that poetically engage with the trials and tribulations of love. Arooj's interpretation of the song won her the 2022 Grammy. It had also landed her a place on former US President Barack Obama's 2021 summer playlist. Now, Arooj and "Mohabbat" are as good as mainstream.

The artist is committed to singing in Urdu as she feels it is a "very beautiful and a good language to sing in. I get to do the things I want to do with my voice, the vowels. The poetry is nostalgic, playful, light but haunting as well," says Aftab.

As a composer and producer, Aftab understands the intricacies of music and puts much thought into "the amalgamation of sounds and instruments that spin a complex web."

Bringing disparate and diverse instruments together helps open her music up to a wide audience. "Whoever is listening can hopefully hear something they identify with or like, like jazz or pop. For the people who understand Urdu or Hindi, it's like a secret for them to enjoy," Aftab explains.

Trying to fit in

In 1997, her compatriot, the famous sufi singer Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan, was nominated for two Grammys, but failed to win.

Arooj Aftab at the Grammys in April 2022 Deutsche Welle

To her credit, Aftab is the first Pakistani to ever win a Grammy and now that she has won the highest accolade in music, she has gotten high praise for her hard work at home.

"My family loves music and is quite liberal, but they did not understand what I was trying to do. It is a bit sad that it took winning a Grammy for some people to finally think what I was doing for so many years was worthwhile," she shared candidly.

However, after returning to Pakistan following the Grammy victory, Aftab realized how the city of Lahore offered more space and acceptance to emerging musicians.

Now, Aftab's "Vulture Prince" European tour is underway and she is returning to Germany after almost seven years to perform. She has a concert on August 18 in Cologne alongside other shows in Berlin and Hamburg.

"The German audience is really great. They really listen so closely with respect and integrity, because they are one of the societies with the privilege of having the resources, time and energy to appreciate music and build a thriving industry," she says.